At least until the stay-at-home order has been lifted, I will be posting an update each Friday. This will be a way to hold myself accountable to keeping up with my wellness practices at a time when I very much need them. For you my dear reader, I hope it will be a reminder toContinue reading “Friday Check-In: The Start of Something New”
It takes everything I have to type these words. There is so much I want to say, but it’s all stuck in my mind, blocked by clouds of doubt. I feel that at this point, with the world turned upside down, with our struggles and anxieties magnified with all the unknowns of what tomorrow willContinue reading “Stuck”
The more I restricted, the more control I felt over myself and my mind. And if I could control myself and keep anxious thoughts at bay, that meant I was a good person and a good Christian not prone to overindulgence.
When I get sick, my routine and practices are torn from me. I find myself lost without my predictable comforts. I am left alone with a body that aches from fighting the pathogen and a mind that begins to swirl with negative and anxious thoughts.
My overconfidence got the best of me. I attempted to ski down the steep hill without knowing the proper technique. I went right into a snowbank.
All I can hear is the soft scratch of gravel below my feet as I move along the sidewalk. Cool, fresh air fills my lungs as I breath in and out in a quick but steady rhythm. My calves expand and contract with every step, delighted by the exertion, invigorated by the freedom. I was finally running outdoors once again.
I wish I could say that after a few days of reflection I have gotten over these feelings and have rebounded with confidence, but I haven’t. I wish I could say that I am looking forward to my next session, but I’m not. I’ve hit a wall, and I have a decision to make.
Valentine’s Day is now a way for me to celebrate love in all its forms and a reminder that those we love deserve our attention and affection all year.
I have always seen my thoughts as my enemy. When they swirl around my mind they often bring anxiety, shame, embarrassment, jealousy, and sorrow. As hard as I try, I cannot stop them. They are a force I cannot overpower. Turns out, the key is to not overpower them at all.
this morning I read something that brought up some feelings and thoughts I have been debating about sharing. Now is as good of a time as any.